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I'm sorry you have heard those messages and glad that one some level you know you never should have and deserved so much better. If this exercise helps you see yourself more clearly, it is worth its weight in gold or maybe platinum. I am vastly larger than you, but am not much haunted by negative messaging. It is all nonsense, really! Our worth as a person doesn't have anything to do with our size or attractiveness to others.

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Omfg thank you okay? Thank you fuckkkkk xxxxx

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Thank you for sharing the messy side of healing and being a human. This was beautiful to read.

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Thank you. It is messy, but that's life, right? :)

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Indeed!

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That should be text me. Oy!

M

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Thank you, MacKenzie! That is so sweet of you. Just so you know, this is a public message board, so let me know if you'd rather your phone number isn't on it, and I can delete the comment for you if you can't do it yourself. But that's a lovely message, thank you so much.

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Nope. I knew it was public. I know how to use the “click” button.

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Lani, since I first met you in Anchorage all those years ago, I admired you from afar.

You were/are still beautiful.

You were published, something I wanted to be.

You were funny and articulate and amazing.

I’m sorry your brain is somewhat still stuck in the past.

I too am a survivor of childhood trauma, emotional, mental, physical, and sexual. And being profoundly hard of hearing didn’t help.

I too have been told I won’t amount to anything, that I was selfish, ugly and stupid.

But I came to a point where my faith played apart of my recovery. I wish for you that you find that sweet spot, of being able to love yourself, totally and completely. Of being able to see the beauty that you are.

Test me sometime, so we can reminisce.

208-791-5854.

Love,

MacKenzie

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